I haven’t written a journal about my childhood for a while now, but what I am about to write was on my mind this morning after having had a conversation with my father last night.
We were talking about my family’s reactions to me having Cerebral Palsy. My father acknowledged mistakes but cannot remember the detail. I know that I cannot change all the mistakes made, but those mistakes sadly, over the years became my routine and legacies.
We take snippets from our parents. If we’re brought up knowing our parents don’t have money, we eventually learn not to ask. I see that has implications too, because we may find it hard to spend money on ourselves, although we may find it easier to spend money on others.
How do we break childhood legacies? We must change our subconscious thoughts so that the conscious begins to think the same thoughts. A lot of our life consists of repeated patterns and it’s those patterns that need to change.
I chose to write down my memories putting them in order so that I could see the patterns. It’s important to acknowledge where you’re responsible, but just going through the process will help you see other people’s part.
It’s important not to own what doesn’t belong to us.