Looking back

I woke up this morning with a clear mind, (which is unusual for me), but as the day moves on, so does my mind. My thoughts now go back to the last 4 months.

Where we have no choice and know that we have to get through certain situations, we tend not to think about those situations. The enormity of what we have had to deal with, hasn’t sunk in yet. I feel as though I’m still on autopilot.

An assault is never easy. To some extent it brought us closer, but other times it divided us. It brings different emotions into the equation. Those had to be dealt with.

Now 4 months on I can see things clearer now. Things have returned to a different normal, but we still have a way to go. I am not sure how Daniel will feel getting back into his old life, but it’s something that will be good for him even if he doesn’t see it now.

None of us can change our past, but it’s important to change the way we perceive our past so that we get to live in the present. I go with the thought that things in our lives happen for a reason, but even if those reasons aren’t apparent or seem clear at the time, it’s important to find a level of acceptance on them.

Invariable situations become clear when we least expect them to. It’s at this point we usually find our own level of acceptance. I hope Daniel finds his.

3 Feb, 2012

2 thoughts on “Looking back

  1. I think Daniel will find acceptance, but it may take a while. We do what we have to for our kids no matter the cost to ourselves. I try to move on and learn from the past.

    Sometimes that’s harder to do; but we need to move on so we don’t get stuck in the past and stay there.

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