As children, we live in fear of the reality that one day our parents will no longer be around anymore. I was aware the bubble would burst. But then children don’t have the knowledge that adults have. Losing a parent seems scary when you’re a child.
My mother passed away what will be 5 years on the 25th May 2012. I believe she will transition to spirit but will still be around me as I live my life and make my decisions. My father is now getting ready to do the same. The last five years have been the most difficult.
I cannot believe we are at this place where decisions need to be made for him to live out his final weeks peacefully. It doesn’t seem real. I am not afraid to lose him, but what is quite scary is watching him fade away.
I have never been good around illness. I have always shied away from it since I was a little girl. Having Sensory Processing Disorder issues will reinforce seeing my father fade away.
I’ll just have to muddle though, the best I can.