Losing a loved one

As children, we may live in fear of the reality that one day our parents will no longer be around.  Children are too young to have the knowledge that adults have. Losing a parent seems scary when you’re a child.

My mother passed away what will be 5 years on the 25th May 2012. I believe she will live in spirit but will still be around me as I live my life and make my decisions. My father is also getting ready to do the same. The last five years have been the most difficult.

I cannot believe we are at this place where decisions need to be made for him to live out his final weeks peacefully. It doesn’t seem real. I am not afraid to lose him, but what is scary is watching him fade away.

I have never been good around illness. I have shied away from it since I was a little girl. Having Sensory Processing Disorder issues, will reinforce seeing my father fade away. I’ll just have to muddle though the best I can.

17 Feb, 2012

4 thoughts on “Losing a loved one

  1. I can totally relate to you and know what you’re going through. I had it with my father 7 years ago this month on the 16th and now my mom is ill with cancer that has taken hold of her body.

    She is fighting strong where my dad gave up. As a child I had the same fears as you. I had dreams of my father dying and would wake him in the night to make sure he was still there.

    1. I think we all have childhood fears around our parents not being there for us as we get older, because we take it for granted that they will.

      It’s come way too soon for me to lose my father as well as my mother. I hope your mother’s not in too much pain and that you are okay with what you’re having to deal with.

  2. So sorry to hear that your father has gotten so ill so quickly! I thought he was just going in for tests, but I didn’t realize that he only had a short time left. Hopefully it will be a peaceful thing!

    1. My father did start by going in for tests, but we found out during his tests, that he was worse than we had originally thought.

      Thank you for your kind words Randy. They help.

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