I love the fact that my website and my book have made me stronger. Talking about my experiences in self-contained spaces that feel safe has changed my life.
Although my life has culminated in some bitter experiences, they have enabled me to unravel my thoughts so I am able to be more positive. Through writing, my thoughts and feelings have enabled me to let go of other people’s guilt, as I have got to know me and my disability.
As a child, I hated looking at my leg and a foot that was different to my other one. I also hated the fact that when I was straight, I was lopsided. Yes, hate is right, but wrong in so many ways. Living inside my head for as many years as I have, I began to see and think differently about myself.
Living with something I didn’t know I had, gave me hope that each day I would get better. Making myself stronger has made things easier. Understanding my physical, mental and emotional disability, has allowed me to come to terms with my disability and some of my experiences.
But when it comes to a disability, it’s never about us, but others who choose to inflict their guilt on us. I see and think differently now, because looking at myself without shoes and socks on, I no longer hate looking back at my disability in the mirror.