Fifty-six years into a disability I didn’t know I had and there are new things that I need to come to terms with.
Even though I didn’t know anything about an affected left arm until I got my cerebral palsy diagnosis, my left arm seemed weaker. Bizarrely, I always found it easier to open things with my left hand, than I did with my right. Now I have difficulty using both, but it’s worse on my left. Where my right side would compensate for the left, there is now progression on both.
When I found out about cerebral palsy I was told that as I age, my brain cells will too and as a result I will physically struggle. At the time it was difficult to know how that would play out, but I understand now.
I find it difficult to pick things up with my left hand. Trying to grasp things with the same hand is near to impossible. Other things include opening bottles, deodorant with twist lids and opening certain car door handles. When it comes to car doors, I sometimes have to use both hands.
If I pick my supplements up with my left hand, I fail to grasp them and they end up on the floor. I still need to continue with those because they help with my general wellness and digestion issues. Certain foods continue to make me ill and those have a knock-on effect on my digestion.
Having had to bring the whole disability thing into focus on my own, I find the whole thing difficult to comprehend. It has still left me asking the question why others would choose to ignore a disability in this way. Not wanting to know isn’t a good enough answer.