When it comes to us having and dealing with a disability, it’s important we understand our symptoms and how we present.
I am reading a book written by a parent and physician of a child with autism and it’s clear that some of my symptoms fit ASD (“Autism Spectrum Disorder.”) Some of my other symptoms also fit Asperger’s and since Asperger’s is on the autism spectrum that would make perfect sense.
In a way I feel calm about it because it’s more than I’ve had and that ticks another box for me. It also reminds me that although my struggles were always being made about me, they were actually about everyone else instead.
For years, it felt such a heavy burden, because no one owned up or came forward to even talk about my disability or struggles, or how my symptoms even presented. But my beliefs are strong enough for me to understand the bigger picture of how the universe sees responsibility and blame, and why I am now exonerated.
I have to continue to piece my symptoms to my co-occurring disorders that form part of the original cerebral palsy diagnosis as best I can. I may at some point go and get some help from an autism adult specialist. It’ll be much quicker that way.