Whilst my ASD diagnosis had been confirmed verbally at the end of my consultation, I have now received my report, which goes into 8 pages of detail that I need to work through.
Due to symptoms that relate to the following, my Consultant has diagnosed me with Asperger’s Syndrome within the Autism Spectrum Disorder.
- Social Interaction;
- Social Communication;
- Flexibility of Thought;
- Sensory Experience.
My Consultant has also hypothesised that the damage to my right frontal lobe received at birth would have made me becoming Autistic more likely.
My diagnosis explains things such as not being able to find the right words when I’m trying to communicate, having anxiety through ‘Flexibility of Thought’ and feeling out of my depth, out of control are all part of that.
Autism helps me understand why I need my routine and why I feel panicked when I am out of one. It explains why I have over reactions to touch, smell and sight and why I have under-reactions to hearing when someone is in close proximity to me, and why my hearing is exceptional when further away.
It explains why I am neither over and under on taste; why I have great ability in one area with my blogging and difficulty in many other areas. It also explains why I have intense and prolonged emotional reactions to situations, circumstances and issues and why I am excessively bothered by tags on clothing.
It explains why through ‘Sensory Experience’ I struggle with touch, why I struggle to look at or touch scouring pads, why I am irritated by loud noises that I haven’t anticipated or expected. It also explains why I struggle with spatial awareness; why I bump into things and why I have fallen down the stairs a few times.
Over the years through ‘Social Interaction’ and ‘Social Communication’ I have learned to compensate and have taught myself how to be sociable. Where I found it difficult to interact as a child, I am able to interact now. I find it easier when I have something that I need to talk about, or if someone else initiates the conversation with me first. Walking into a room full of people as a child was also difficult.
Having missed all my developmental milestones and given the various concerns, my neurological symptoms should have been dealt with by my parents, family, teachers and Consultants.
Fifty-five years on and there was more to my disability than just a cerebral palsy diagnosis and I’m still trying to get my head around the enormity of it all.