Writing about my childhood is important. It is important I write about the emotional struggles I experienced as a child; they seem completely relevant now.
I’ve talked about negative self-talk and how that can impact our lives. Growing up, I found it difficult to shift bad thoughts. I didn’t understand why. I didn’t know how to move my thinking and as many times as I tried, I failed.
Although as children we don’t always understand our feelings, or how to identify with what we feel, living in a negative environment doesn’t help. Growing up I carried all the hallmarks of being insecure and having depression.
A lot of what we hear, see and experience in the early years plays a part in our emotions and in our lives. Insecure children, become insecure adults. Nothing changes, we just become good at masking our insecurities, so the outside world doesn’t see what we feel inside.
Insecurities and fears that cannot be placed or identified in that moment are also likely to go back further. Everything we hear or see is stored in our subconscious, recorded as a memory, together with the feelings that went with those experiences. To reduce our struggles, it’s important we think about and deal with those.