My different way of thinking

30 Jan 2017

Unfortunately, because my brain is configured differently to that of a normal thinking brain, how I get to see things is back to front, like a rewired plug that doesn’t work. That includes any processes that requires forward or normal emotional thinking.

For me to get round that I use my intuition to bring my thoughts into a forward-thinking process and that helps me think in the same way other people think. As a child, I had no understanding of my abnormal thinking. I missed out on all the usual milestones and other people’s normal behaviour traits to me, seemed abnormal.

In another blog, I will explain more of my rationale difficulties, why and how my rationale really works and why without my ability to rationale, I can sometimes feel panicky and out of my depth.

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  1. Randy 30. Jan, 2017 at 2:23 pm #

    Well, now that does make a lot of sense and something I can relate to in a different way. I didn’t have the brain issue, but I had parents who were always trying to convince me to see things the way they saw them which wasn’t right.

    They also didn’t teach us how to deal with the world around us, so we had to figure out most of it on our own like you had to do, on top of everything else. This is when that attitude of don’t talk, causes so many problems because the real issues aren’t discussed, so that they can be addressed.

    It really isn’t fair especially to the children who may actually have serious issues that need to be worked on that affects their whole lives. How is a child supposed to be able to figure out things on their own? You had parents telling you what to do, but not how, which is the most important part.

    I’m guessing that no one else in your world was very understanding of your condition, because they didn’t even know that there was a problem. Kind of hard to address the issue when nobody is acknowledging that there is one to begin with.

    They are addressing so many more of them in schools and the world, but back when we grew up most issues weren’t really dealt with, other than if it was an obvious issue, like Down’s syndrome.

    It would have been nice to have had some help growing up, but that didn’t happen, so we had to deal with those issues on our own and now we can figure out how to work with them the right way.

    • Ilana 30. Jan, 2017 at 4:07 pm #

      Thanks Randy. Yes, like you I’m sure I get to figure things out my own way. My thinking obviously keeps me busy though, so I’m not complaining.

      I think you’re right though, my condition was serious enough to need attention and although I got some attention with my physical issues, it was never in the right way because attention was always being drawn back to me.

      Although, I didn’t know I had Cerebral Palsy and didn’t understand my neurological impairments, there was too much negativity going on around my issues.

      My issues were there but no one was prepared to talk about it. It was like the elephant in the room, those close to me knew the issues were there but they were never talked about or aired. There were numerous misunderstandings due to ignorance on what I was actually dealing with. Life didn’t have to be like that.

      Yes, it’s good that disabilities are being addressed in the world now, but we still fall short of where we should be with disability. There is still not enough help out there for people with disabilities, but it is better.

      Your last paragraph I feel sums up your response nicely Randy. We now must figure out how to work with our issues in the right way and hope you are able to do that now.

      That is what I will continue to do, both in my personal life and here on my site. I think just talking about our issues, particularly here on the site helps. We’re not alone anymore. I hope you feel that too.

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