This blog is yet another piece to the jigsaw on my disability and a lot of workings out. I know that I am more emotionally disabled than I am physically, due to the nature of the damage to my Cerebral Cortex.
The Cerebral Cortex controls both motor function and emotions and in my case my motors skills and physical disability are relatively minor, but the main issue revolves around my inability to physically feel.
When it comes to any disability, there is no easy way to deal with it. Where one person might struggle, another person with similar symptoms may not, but our perceptions and the nature of having a disability is hard. I don’t think one element is harder than another, I just think it’s different with the different symptoms we have to deal with.
I talk about my intuition a lot, because I use that to compensate. I use my intuition in context of my emotions and to gage or anticipate how others might feel. I use my intuition to read other people’s emotions and manage my thoughts constructively. I say thoughts, rather than feelings, because that is what they are. They’re just thoughts.
To feel is to physically feel and all that physically feeling entails, but sadly the damage to my Cerebral Cortex means that is what I struggle with. Because of my brain impairment, it is easy for me to stay locked away in my own little world, but my intuition tends to act as my guide and that helps me work things out. I choose to adapt, to try to find acceptance on everything I deal with.
I find that I sometimes have no choice, because life becomes harder when I don’t. With my disability, I have to be able to fit into my life, as others must fit into mine.