Through maturity and growing up, we learn everything there is to know about ourselves, ready to embark on new relationships.
We learn about our likes and dislikes, what irritates us, what makes us happy and what makes us sad, what makes us, us. We become independent thinkers, and ready for the challenge a new relationship brings. Having grown, we’re comfortable with the concept and the challenge of moving on.
Having my specific brain damage, meant I didn’t have access to the usual emotional thought patterns and ability to grow. It would go on to take some 25 years to learn about myself for the first time, and how I function.
It would also take me the same amount of time to learn about myself in my relationships and that hasn’t been easy. Waking up for the first time to a diagnosis, but not knowing anything about it, I am having to learn everything from scratch, including my neurological symptoms and how those symptoms play out in my life: not easy.
Going into any relationship and not knowing things about yourself means you end up growing in the relationship and thinking differently, as you find out new things about yourself. Years on and I am not the same person. My ideals and aspirations have changed with a different thinking from me.
I’m now not only older and more informed, coming through those late experiences, but I’m also emotionally and spiritually different and that has changed me. I now have less tolerance and patience for the petty stuff.