It’s another back to back blog. Having just come away with a confirmed diagnosis for autism means I must now accept the diagnosis and live my life with a new thinking around my symptoms. It’s taken 9 years since the original cerebral palsy diagnosis for me to work everything out.
I suppose in a way I’m lucky, because my autism symptoms are mild. Over the years I have taught myself to adapt into my life, but it’s something I need to continue to do. When it comes to anxiety, new unfamiliar situations are difficult.
I’m also not sure how I feel about having autism, or what I’m struggling with the most, the fact that my life has been one big struggle with symptoms I knew nothing about and had to learn about on my own, or the fact that no one cared enough to help, so that life could have been made easier, particularly in school.
You couldn’t make this situation up. Although it’s easier knowing I have autism versus not knowing, it doesn’t stop me living with anxiety and having to deal with autism symptoms.