Out of everything I’ve had to deal with since I started my journey nearly eight years ago, my handwriting is the only thing I haven’t yet tackled. I haven’t talked about my handwriting struggles in any great detail, primarily because I’m too embarrassed.
Handwriting is one of those things we learn as a child and then subconsciously just do it. We don’t even have to think about it; although I appreciate that with technology advances we probably write less now, but my brain damage stops me from forming my letters together.
Another problem is that if someone speaks too quickly as I’m trying to write, my brain not only has trouble interpreting what I hear, but I also struggle to form the outlines. As explained, my consultant says this is due to a non-dominant parietal lobe problem, so perhaps I shouldn’t be so embarrassed.
In school my writing was too small and I would write at snails pace, but perhaps that’s got something to do with the outlines being small enough for me to form without it being a problem. It didn’t matter how many times I was asked to write larger and quicker, I couldn’t. It’s a shame no teacher ever stopped to ask why.
Now that I have managed to make the outlines slightly bigger, they’re even less well formed. It’s something I continue to struggle with. There are times when I still feel embarrassed that something so basic is something I struggle with.