This morning I am feeling brighter, but also feel sad that my health is something that I will always have to deal with. It’s something that will always be a part of me, because I was premature and because I have Cerebral Palsy.
This is the part I find so hard. I cruise but then it always feels as though I constantly need to strive and fight to stay well, because my health can turn quickly and when I’m not well it’s a battle to get my health back to anywhere near optimum level.
Usually, when I’m full of cold within hours it’s gone on to my chest, but this time I have managed to avoid it. I have changed one of the supplements I take that I believe has helped. This supplement also helps with reflux. It has changed my life significantly as I can at least function now.
As I see it, the cold itself isn’t the problem. It’s the fact that my immune system is completely compromised around illness and that’s scary. I struggle trying to get my health back to normal. I know my life has never been any different, but obviously the older I am, the longer it takes for my body to heal.
As a child dealing with Cerebral Palsy and illness didn’t make a difference to my recovery. Whatever illness I had, I recovered around the same time as my siblings. Now I am finding that with all I deal with is taking a lot longer for me to recover. I am also a lot more poorly with my illnesses.
I need to stay strong and focused so that when I am ill, I stay as positive as I can. I also need to continue to be as pro-active as I can so that I limit illness. That way I will also feel as though I am more in control of what happens to me.