My hospital visit

An appointment has now been made for me on Friday to have my lesions taken off, so there’s no turning back.

I have to do this, but wish I didn’t have to. My only concern is whether the lesions will grow back. I was told by a specialist many years ago that there were no guarantees that if they were removed, they wouldn’t grow back; but for now my concern is to have the lesions on my nose taken off.

I must say that the older I am getting, the less inclined I am to do these things and although I know this is in my best interest, the idea isn’t resting comfortably with me. I know I will be fine on the day. I have had so much done in previous years, this is second nature to me; but having left all those procedures behind me, I’m really not keen to have to travel this road again.

I’m also not a brilliant healer and given the fact that I have Cerebral Palsy makes my recovery and healing time even slower. I still look at my life and wonder how I got to be so unfortunate with my health and all that I deal with, but then I tell myself that in some ways I am very lucky.

I have the ability to contemplate my thoughts and use expression in the way that I do, which helps me deal with what I have to. I know one of our characteristics is wishing that somehow our lives were different, particularly if we struggle; but I also know that if I didn’t have Cerebral Palsy this wouldn’t be my path.

I cannot change my life with Cerebral Palsy, but what I can try and do is remain upbeat about all of my challenges and I am going to try my best to achieve those. I hope I’m still saying this on Friday.

10 Mar, 2011

14 thoughts on “My hospital visit

  1. I have a good feeling about this doctor and what you are going through. I am certain that you will be fine tomorrow.

    You have the innate strength to work through this.

    1. I know you are right. I have done this so many times before. Tomorrow I have every confidence I will be fine.

    1. Ria it’s wonderful to see you on site. I think living with the anticipation is worse. I know you are right. Thanks for posting.

  2. Best wishes for a speedy recovery from your hospital visit. I’m sure you’ll do fine once this is all done and over with. I’ve had it done myself so I know what it’s like!

    Hang in there, you’re a strong person.

  3. Staying upbeat is so important and I’m glad you are that way.

    I hope you heal well and are back to normal soon. I’m not supposed to heal well either, but I’ve found I heal better than a lot of people. My scars are minimal from all my surgeries… and I’ve always healed quickly.

    It’s my determination to not let things bother me physically. Mentally is a different story sometimes.

    Good luck with everything.

    1. Thanks Lisa. I think all the preparations I did before hand has contributed greatly to my healing. I have no pain and feel fine.

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