An appointment has now been made for me on Friday to have my lesions taken off, so there’s no turning back.
I have to do this, but wish I didn’t have to. My only concern is whether the lesions will grow back. I was told by a specialist many years ago that there were no guarantees that if they were removed, they wouldn’t grow back; but for now my concern is to have the lesions on my nose taken off.
I must say that the older I am getting, the less inclined I am to do these things and although I know this is in my best interest, the idea isn’t resting comfortably with me. I know I will be fine on the day. I have had so much done in previous years, this is second nature to me; but having left all those procedures behind me, I’m really not keen to have to travel this road again.
I’m also not a brilliant healer and given the fact that I have Cerebral Palsy makes my recovery and healing time even slower. I still look at my life and wonder how I got to be so unfortunate with my health and all that I deal with, but then I tell myself that in some ways I am very lucky.
I have the ability to contemplate my thoughts and use expression in the way that I do, which helps me deal with what I have to. I know one of our characteristics is wishing that somehow our lives were different, particularly if we struggle; but I also know that if I didn’t have Cerebral Palsy this wouldn’t be my path.
I cannot change my life with Cerebral Palsy, but what I can try and do is remain upbeat about all of my challenges and I am going to try my best to achieve those. I hope I’m still saying this on Friday.