My inability to rationale

Talking about my struggles with not being able to rationale, is an important blog that I felt compelled to write. Whilst it’s taken me too many years to understand exactly what I continually deal with; I feel that I am getting there.

I know that my frontal lobe (frontal cortex) is extensively damaged. One area of the frontal cortex is called the prefrontal cortex. Its functions include spatial learning, conscious thought, judgments, decision making and language.

The prefrontal cortex basically allows us to make sound and rational decisions. It also helps to override impulsive urges, which can in certain circumstances leave us worse off, particularly if we were to act on those impulses. Our ability to stop the progression of impulses is helpful, because we get to function in our daily lives without getting ourselves into deep water.

When the prefrontal cortex is functioning normally, it protects us from making rash and impulsive decisions, so when this part of the brain isn’t working correctly, the opposite usually occurs. For example, if we have a bad day at work, we might act on impulse and tell our boss what we think of his job. Of course, this wouldn’t be in our best interest, we’d probably lose our job, but it’s easy to understand why we could act on impulse, if that part of the brain wasn’t functioning.

Unfortunately, brain damage in the prefrontal cortex due to a stroke, a head injury or dementing illness, may often result in altered social cognitive abilities. In my own case because my stroke happened when I was a baby, my brain was young enough to adapt. I adapted.

This part of the brain can cause changes in emotional control, motivation, inhibition and initiation, so it explains why I can lack motivation sometimes. Also typical are an intolerance for frustration and easily provoked aggressive behaviour. We may also have to deal with lethargy, but we learn how to counteract these changes. There are specific techniques we can learn to oppose any powerful urges.

My intuition helps me counteract some of those urges. I have had to become adept at understanding how I need to curb some of those impulsive feelings, but unfortunately it depends on the severity of the issue and therefore impulse.

I need to be mindful of where I am with my feelings at all times.


7 Feb, 2017

6 thoughts on “My inability to rationale

  1. Yes, this makes perfect sense if that part of your brain is damaged. I refer to it as not having a filter like other people as far as how you may express yourself.

    I have watched my niece doing it time after time, when she does and says things, but wonders why people are so upset with her. This is a big part of her Asperger’s, which her father doesn’t seem to believe is an issue, but then again he has a lot of those traits himself.

    For some reason I seem to be able to pick on those things and was able to translate her actions. to help her deal with them. We tried over and over to explain it to her dad, who pretty much let it slide; so now she is 18 and probably going to be barefoot and pregnant any day now!

    This was exactly why I knew how to deal with my daughter and her Cerebral Palsy, to figure out what she needed to be able to function. Her mother seemed to have such a hard time dealing with it, which often puzzled me.

    I was really trying to do the best I could for her, but my mistake was feeling sorry for her mother. I grew up hearing that the mother always gets custody of the children no matter how horrible she is, so I didn’t believe that I could actually get custody of her.

    Now she is almost 27 years old and hasn’t had much of a life considering her mother hasn’t pushed her to learn how to do things that she needed to. It sounds like you didn’t get the help you needed either, which was very sad considering you are a very smart and sensitive person.

    They probably treated you like a difficult child, without considering any of your issues. We can work on them now, but knowing exactly what they are is half the battle.

    1. Thanks Randy. Yes, none of my issues were taken into consideration as a child, but my father did go on to say many years later that out of all of his children, I was the most caring and compassionate.

      Underneath the exterior there was a very gentle side, but it was very rarely seen. I was very angry in my formative years. Not surprisingly given that my emotional issues we’re completely overlooked. Truth be told, I think I was seen as being difficult.

      I think if it wasn’t for my intuition, I would definitely struggle more. My intuition continues to act as a filter for information that I need to retrieve or get back. It also helps me learn, because I find it difficult to retain information, or get information back in the usual way.

      It’s a shame the people who should have been there to support your niece weren’t, but thank goodness for you, for also helping your daughter.

  2. I’m thinking of the whiskey and the many years of being in denial about my wounds. Then I thought about your rationale and how it propelled me to a higher place since reading your blogs.

    So I braced myself against all that you stand for and stayed there.

    1. Aww thanks Tim. No matter how much I have to deal with, I always try to propel myself to a higher level, because ultimately that allows me to be better than I was yesterday and will ultimately help me get through what I deal with.

      Although what I deal with has always been patchy including not understanding my neurological impairments, which includes my rationale until now, I have always managed to come through pretty much unscathed because I have chosen to be positive.

      It’s easy for any of us to play the victim card, but propelling ourselves to a higher place will always see us as the victor. Thank you for choosing to brace yourself against all that I stand for.

      Although life is a storm at times, we’re weathering our experiences together through my blogs. Thanks for being a part of that.

  3. That’s another piece in the jigsaw, which I see as hugely positive. Even though difficult for you to manage on a day to day basis, your further understanding will help you be in charge of your decision making; and the influences around you.

    1. Thank you, Yes, I also think so. If I had my time again I would still want to know. Knowing has helped shape my life up to this point and put the jigsaw together.

      That part for me has been enormously important.

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