Looking back on my symptoms over the years, it’s obvious I have been dealing with stress and anxiety since I was a small child and they’re something I continue to deal with.
I have also been dealing with symptoms very similar to Kenophobia and have been since my mid-thirties. Kenophobia is an irrational and persistent fear of buildings that have a big sense of scale to them. I first noticed the condition when I visited an old steel works science museum that had a vast open space of 4 to 5 storeys high.
My symptoms were striking, because they came on very quickly. I began to feel anxious and slightly panicked. My temperature started rising and my breathing increased, then I started to hyperventilate and that brought on rapid breathing, panic and fear. I needed to get out.
It is generally accepted that phobias arise from internal pre-dispositions, i.e. genetics or hereditary, some phobias being traced back to a triggering event, or traumatic experience very early on. (Wikipedia on phobias). It is also accepted that hereditary, genetics, brain chemistry, combined with life-experiences all play their part in the development of phobias.
In my case, my inability to be able to rationale or remove anxiety away through my neurological impairments, is the reason why I struggle. Experiences and symptoms and how those manifests themselves is personal to me, but my inability to be able to work through experiences because of my neurological impairments makes what I deal with worse.
Because I am not able to resolve certain problems that need to be resolved, they continue to manifest themselves in my anxiety disorder. My symptoms include, extreme anxiety and dread, rapid breathing, inability to articulate clearly, irritability, lack of focus; feelings of powerlessness, feelings and fear of losing control.
This also happens in circumstances where I have no control of an outcome and am struggling to find an answer that would take away stress. The reality for me is that the more I understand my symptoms, the more scary it all feels.