I’ve been watching a few tear-jerking episodes of Davina McCall and Nicky Campbell’s Long Lost Family series and although I haven’t missed out on knowing my family, not knowing that I had Cerebral Palsy for so many years, makes me feel that part of my own life has been lost.
There is a large chunk of my life that I will never get back, not knowing that I had Cerebral Palsy for 46 years. My frustrations, my anger, being blamed so many times for being angry, without taking the time to find out why. Wanting to know what was wrong with me. Living with no emotional support, my many questions and no answers to my pleas and living a lie.
My life has been a lie up to the point of me finding out. Those years are the years I can never get back. Those are my lost years.