I’ve been watching a few tear-jerking episodes of Davina McCall and Nicky Campbell’s ‘Long-Lost Family’ series and although I haven’t missed out on knowing my family, not knowing that I had cerebral palsy, makes me feel that part of my own life has been lost.
There is a large chunk of my life that I shall never get back, living with a disability I didn’t know I had. My frustrations, my anger, being blamed so many times for my anger. Wanting to know what was wrong with me. Living with no emotional support, my many questions and no answers to my pleas, and living a lie.
My life had been a lie up to the point of me finding out. Those years are the years I can never get back, those are my lost years.