I tend to often reflect situations that upset me, to see if I could have done things better or differently. That way I bring closure more easily and stop blaming myself.
I know that organising my wardrobe around Claudia’s graduation wasn’t going to be easy. I still struggle with the Cerebral Palsy what to wear in the summer thing. I wanted to wear something which said summer, so that I don’t stick out like a sore thumb, but didn’t quite manage that.
Sadly, I was still struggling to put a wardrobe together two days before St Andrews, having started planning a couple of months before that. The clothes I already had in my wardrobe, weren’t really summer clothes, or what I would have chosen to wear, but couldn’t find anything else appropriate that didn’t shout out Cerebral Palsy.
I find it sad, but know I’m not unique that often what we want to wear isn’t what we end up having to wear for all sorts of reasons. My nemesis is Cerebral Palsy. Being born with brain damage isn’t something I can correct, but I need to get better at challenging the way I tackle situations that I know affect me more than others.
In the winter months when I cover up and wear boots that I’m happy because my issues are mostly hidden. To the untrained eye, yes it’s mostly hidden.