If someone were to ask me how the neurological aspect of cerebral palsy affects me, it would be a difficult question to answer. I have researched it, but part of my condition means I don’t recall information that well.
I find it hard to compare, as I have only my own experience of managing thoughts, feelings and memory to go on and finding out late, meant I adapted effectively without knowing in many areas.
I have always known I struggle with anxiety and as a result, means I do things and think things out differently. Knowing about autism explains it a little more.
My anxiety is the worst part, although managing change and having perception difficulties through my particular brain damage, means unfamiliar situations and coping with unexpected scenarios can be difficult. Smells and textures are also difficult.
I am lucky that I am able to connect deeply with my spirituality/intuition to manage decision making. I’m not sure how old I was when I began to rely on them, but effectively they both help bring about clarity, where I have little to no clarity.
The whole neuro autism issue is scary, primarily because of how I get to see the world and deal with issues, but with the help, others can help me pave the way for me to feel better about things.
I am almost embarrassed I’m not able to do these things for myself, but I must also accept this is my life and what I have been given.