A recent trip to the podiatrist has brought back some early memories I had disbanded with. I was hoping being asked to walk up and down the room without my shoes and socks on would have been easier this time around.
Although I managed not to show off this time, I found it difficult to walk up and down the room without thinking about whether the podiatrist was watching me. It has made me more conscious because of my father walking behind me telling me to pick my foot up and to stop dragging my leg.
The consultation not only reinforced a lot of the old negative thoughts and feelings, but also brought with it new understandings about my scoliosis and leg length difference, neither condition pointed out or explained. When I’m lying down I have a leg length difference of 8mm. When I’m standing up, because I have a muscle weakness in my left leg and a scoliosis, the leg length difference is extended to between 20-25mm.
There was also no mention in my original medical notes of a knee hyper-extension. What that means is my knee extends too far beyond the normal limit when walking. It shifts outwards and backwards because of nerve damage. Walking long distances can lead to muscle fatigue and which contributes to my abnormal gait.
Although the orthotics I am wearing are two years old and are still working well, the podiatrist I originally saw isn’t working now and there is no record of my original prescription. At some point I will think about having more orthotics made with this new prescription.
My podiatrist, couldn’t tell whether my current orthotics with its prescription, would be what she intended to prescribe now because she didn’t have my earlier notes. She’s given me exercises to do.
I know my feelings have come on the back of me not knowing how I would feel going back into this situation again and that’s what I’m struggling with.