I am not sure how I think or feel this morning, but honestly, I tend to go through these phases. Things tick over nicely, then bad feelings and thoughts are just here, like a bolt out of the blue. I know that sometimes if I’m dealing with something, it’s usually that something that triggers these thoughts.
Maybe I would have been more emotionally settled with some support? Of course I’ll never know because it never happened that way. I’ve also just found out that tonight I have been re-booked into hospital to have the last part of my lesion on my nose removed.
Although it doesn’t please me because I will have more healing to work through, I can finally put the whole experience behind me, once it’s been done. Again, it’s just something else for me to work through. I am hoping that this will be the end of surgery, for the foreseeable future. The older I get, it gets harder to motivate myself for things like this.
Maybe this is responsible for my reflective mood this morning. I now need to gear myself up emotionally for what lies ahead in my day, as surgery beckons.