There is no doubt that I would still be struggling to understand or talk about my experiences if I hadn’t started my Diary. The CP Diary is a place I come to just so that I can talk.
Through my blog I feel emotionally free for the first time, having been kept in the dark for 46 years. Others must understand how they could and should have done things differently.
Those others who allow others to go through difficult circumstances, where they could have made our lives easier, who never accept or look at themselves in the mirror, must reconcile for themselves.
When any child is born with special needs, they are special needs no matter how small their needs are. All family members must rally round. For a special needs child, their life isn’t just about the physical difficulties they face, but the neurological difficulties also.
Without my website, my life would look and feel very different. My blog helps me work through my thoughts and feelings, so that I can finally bring understanding into the equation on my experiences.
But keeping things secret will always it go against how the universe expects us to behave and where secrets aren’t supposed to be secret, the universe will always find a way to correct that situation.
I am trying not to hold on to the negativity surrounding my ‘secret disability’ just being able to talk about my experiences and get my thoughts out there is where my Diary comes in.