My life has always been up and down dealing with a physical disability over the years. Dealing with a physical, mental and emotional disability meant that I would always have to work through different problems in my life.
How I deal with a close one around a terminal illness around my disability, will leave me with thoughts and uncertainties. I still have uncertainties because of this one unresolved issue, my disability.
Having lost one parent already and the other now terminally ill, brings more thoughts for me on what I have had to deal with, all these years growing up with a physical disability and not knowing about it.
Yesterday my thoughts went straight to what I still have to deal with and how I feel about it all. It is important to be able to talk about what we deal with, with our parents, and as a family.
I have had to support myself over the years trying to find some sort of level of acceptance on my disability. Now it really is a scary thought knowing that I may never be able to talk this one out.
With one of my parent’s still around, I always thought there may be a chance or opportunity for me to talk about my disability and how it was for me growing up. I’m not giving up on that.