It’s taken me too many years to understand why I continue to have up and down days. It has taken me too many years to understand everything there is to know about my neurological impairments and why they make me feel panicked.
Because my perceptions are heightened, any issues I have to deal with are also heightened. I have never struggled with the concept of change, I struggle with change that involves having to deal with sensory reckoning.
My rewiring changes everything. I hate that I have heightened perceptions that make my issues bigger and scarier. On a daily basis I have to deal with my sensory perceptions first, then with any presenting issues that crop up.
Because things never feel or sit right the first time, I have to constantly bring my thoughts back into line so that my issues don’t blow up into something bigger and for me that’s always been a constant battle.
I would love to hear from anyone who deals with cerebral palsy, who also has problems with sensory perceptions in the way I do.