Having been diagnosed with Autism in 2019, this is my version of autism. My core symptoms are anxiety and fear, restricted repetitive behaviours, sensory issues including over-sensitivities to sounds, touch, smells and pain.
Autism combined with cerebral palsy means I have daily mental health challenges. I also have difficulty with making eye contact, gestures, tone of voice, verbal communication, facial expressions, expressions not to be taken literally.
I also struggle with seeking emotional comfort from others, taking in and acknowledging conversations that over the years has got me into trouble. I have got better at expressing my emotions verbally, but on paper I have no problems at all.
Through my intuition, I have also got better at recognising my emotions, and other people’s intentions. Dealing with anxiety on a regular basis, means I still struggle with feeling overwhelmed around issues I have no control over.
Although autism isn’t always attached to a primary condition such as cerebral palsy, my autism is because of cerebral palsy. I have always had mental and emotional struggles. Now I am aware, I’m really not sure what to think.