New understandings

Nine years after my initial cerebral palsy diagnosis at the age of forty-six, I am still putting pieces of the jigsaw together.

Thankfully, I now have a better understanding of my diagnosis. I have mild cerebral palsy hemiparesis (left side) caused by a bleed on the brain before I was born. That ties in with my mum’s understanding of my birth being difficult.

Mild cerebral palsy hemiparesis is a weakness in one side of the body. It inhibits growth and development, impairing the muscle and nerves controlling movement that presents as mechanical symptoms, and results in difficulty with walking, balance and motor control, little to no strength in the arm and leg, and leg length difference.

I have learned that as a result of cerebral palsy I also have comorbidity, which is the presence of one or more disorders co-occurring with a primary disorder, that in my case, forms part of the cerebral palsy diagnosis.

My psychological, neurological and emotional difficulties are as a result of additional brain impairments, arising through comorbidity, in the form of Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD), although it is difficult to know how much of that is ASD-related.

29 Aug, 2018

2 thoughts on “New understandings

  1. I’m sure that it has helped to make sense of the issues that you have had to deal with over the years, once you knew of your diagnosis.

    You have done a lot of work trying to understand your condition and how to address those issues, which your blog has helped with.

    It has also helped me out tremendously too. It seemed like the things you were writing about, were so often what I was trying to deal with at the time.

    There have been so many issues that I have been trying to deal with, but the hardest one right now, is the fact that I have been in a toxic relationship for far too long and I need to understand why.

    The only way to really do the work I need to do is to be on my own, when all I want to do is move on to another relationship with my BFF, which would be like going from the frying pan into the fire and that really doesn’t make any sense at all.

    1. Thanks Randy. I’m pleased my blogs help you too. My blog gives me the answers where I had none.

      Yes, it not always easy to understand how toxic relationships work, but they usually stem from our relationship with our parents and with our siblings, in our formative years.

      If our parents come from toxic relationships with their parents, those traits are passed on to us.

      But we can change the way we live our lives by dealing with our issues and move on so that we consciously change the way we do things.

      As my story shows, we don’t have to live or stay in that place, even if others put us there or leave us there. We get to choose how the story ends.

      We can change and move away from toxic relationships. Always bring understanding into the equation. We need to understand why someone presents a certain way and come to understand them.

      Once we understand we can then decide whether we stay, or whether we choose to walk away.

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