Sadly, The CP Diary is no consolation for how I found out I had Cerebral Palsy. It doesn’t right a wrong in that way. It simply allows me to have a voice, to express what I feel about my experiences, write a wrong there and helps me turn something so negative into something positive.
The Diary allows me to see that just because that was my life, doesn’t mean I need to allow it to continue. My blogs enable me to compartmentalise my experiences, so that I can understand and assign those dark experiences to a place that can’t hurt me anymore.
It doesn’t change or take away the responsibility of others who should have known better and who should have been instrumental in looking after my emotional and physical wellbeing. Without my experiences, written in blog form, I know I would still struggle to understand and come to terms with my earlier life.
The good thing about the Diary is that I now understand a lot more than I ever have, whilst I get to do what I love to do, blog my thoughts and feelings out. Others will always be responsible and will have to take responsibility for their actions, in what were very dark times for me, but now I simply choose not to dwell.
The CP Diary allows me to have a voice for the very first time. It also allows me to write a wrong in a way that helps others too.