The CP Diary is no consolation for how I found out about cerebral palsy. It doesn’t right a wrong, but it does allow me to have a voice, to express what I feel about my experiences, and help me turn something negative into something positive.
It allows me to see that just because that was my life, doesn’t mean I need to allow that to continue. My blogs enable me to compartmentalise my experiences, so that I can understand and assign my experiences to a place that can’t hurt me anymore.
It doesn’t change or take away the responsibility of others who should have been instrumental in looking after my emotional, mental and physical wellbeing. Without writing about my experiences in the way I have, I know I would still struggle to understand and come to terms with my earlier life.
My Diary gives me understanding, whilst I get to do what I love to do. My writing heals. Others will always be responsible and will have to take responsibility for their actions, in what were very dark times for me, but now I shall not dwell.
The CP Diary allows me to have a voice for the very first time. Each word, each blog, write a wrongs and helps others too. I couldn’t be happier.