This blog is my hardest blog yet. It’s has taken a while to write it and it’s been far from easy.
I now recognise an issue that I have been struggling with for many years, which will never be verified by doctors because of the lack of research. I also know that the symptoms that affect me, may not affect other people with Cerebral Palsy.
Looking back, it is true to say that I never had the feelings that one associates with wanting to be with someone. The feeling that you want to spend every waking moment with that person and that being apart would be too difficult; for me it just didn’t happen. I never had the innate feeling either that I wanted or needed to take the relationship to a more serious level.
I am sure that the Cerebral Cortex is affected and that the part of my brain that deals with feelings hasn’t developed. The pre-adolescent feelings when we are attracted to the opposite sex didn’t happen for me.
From my own research, the Cerebral Cortex that deals with any kind of feelings might be affected. I don’t feel what others feel. I think this also infringes on intimacy and other aspects of my life too and that can be very difficult at times.
It would be interesting to know whether there is anyone else out there who feels or who has the same kind of problems. I have come across one other person who also struggles, but I am not aware of anyone else.
It would be helpful to hear from other people whose experiences are similar.