I had a tendency to give up on things as a child, and I never understood why until now, but that didn’t stop others thinking I was lazy. There was a reason for my behavioural pattern, so that lets me off the hook.
Unfortunately, it didn’t stop my flaws from being pointed out, which did very little for my self-esteem. I went through my childhood with my hackles raised, because of a lack of understanding on my neurological difficulties.
It’s been a few years since my diagnosis was confirmed, and I am still finding things out about myself. Being a parent myself, it is a side to my life that I will never comprehend. When I think I’ve found a level of acceptance, my subconscious tells me we’re not done.
But now I know why I have a tendency to give up, I can work to find ways to overcome it. My blog shows the world a different version of where I was all those years ago. I must continue to find ways to challenge myself, so that I can remain more focused and not give up.
My cerebral palsy and autism diagnosis certainly puts my struggles into context and helps others close to me, to understand. They must understand it wasn’t me being lazy. I had too many neurological challenges to overcome that continually got in the way.