Given that everything was done for me when I was a child and I didn’t have to rationale anything, I couldn’t know that I struggled with not being able to rationale.
In my childhood, I continually struggled with bad thoughts and had no idea why I could never let those go. Looking back, I can see and understand that my issues with not being able to rationale made getting rid of any bad thoughts impossible to shift. It wasn’t that I didn’t struggle with symptoms as a child because I clearly did, but I had no understanding.
It’s only since my diagnosis and knowing what my neurological difficulties are that I have begun to understand why I still struggle with issues that create bad thoughts and impulsive tendencies.
I know that I have become more adept at understanding the way my mind works, but the issues that take more working out still leave me feeling impulsive and panicky and that I will always have to deal with.