When parents don’t talk about certain things with their child that their child needs to know about, they are actively making a response that will inevitably have negative connotations and a ripple effect throughout that child’s natural life.
Where you’re born with something wrong and you know something’s not right and your emotional needs aren’t met that’s something not easily accepted. I spent years as a child, struggling with bad thoughts and had no understanding as to why.
As a child, I also didn’t understand that my bad thoughts were there because I dealt with anxiety and depression, brought about through sensory processing issues and a physical disability I didn’t know I had.
In May, The CP Diary will be 8 years old and I am still working things out from my diagnosis at the age of 46. Finding out what I had late, meant there was a lot of struggle. I know that had I not been emotionally strong enough to cope, I would have buckled under the strain for sure.
Although it hasn’t always been easy, I use reflection so I get to see the bigger picture. I think it’s something we should all do. I know that my parents cared, but couldn’t care and that’s the difference.
It’s all to do with the wounded psyche, but that’s for another blog.