When any parent chooses not to talk about certain things with their child that their child needs to know about, they are actively making a response that will inevitably have negative connotations and a ripple effect throughout that child’s natural life.
Where you’re born with something wrong and you know something’s not right and your emotional needs aren’t met that’s something not easily accepted. I also spent years as a child struggling with bad thoughts and had no understanding or that I would always have to deal with bad thoughts.
As a child I also didn’t understand that my bad thoughts were there because I dealt with anxiety, brought about through sensory processing issues that I didn’t know I had. And whilst as parents we don’t know everything and therefore have to learn, where parents choose not to know, then the child must bring about their own understanding.
In May, The CP Diary will be 8 years old and I’m still working things out from my diagnosis at the age of 46. And finally finding out what I had at 46 that’s a lot of years of struggle. I know that had I not been emotionally strong enough to cope, I would have buckled under the strain for sure.
Although it’s not always easy, it is good for me to think about things through reflection just so I get to see the bigger picture. I think it’s something we should all do. I now know that my parents cared, but couldn’t care and that’s the difference.
It’s all to do with the wounded psyche, but that’s for another blog.