Although as a child I was never given credit, recognition or valued and this led to a lack of self-worth and confidence, my problem is more complicated than that because I deal with neurological issues.
My most significant achievement to date is The CP Diary and yet sadly, I cannot equate the success of my achievement, with me being instrumental in attaining that achievement. Where others recognise and see their achievements as being success stories, I must tell myself this is my success and I need to embrace it. As much as I try to recognise my success, I sadly don’t.
As a child although I was struggling emotionally and physically, the truth is that I had already been written off. The uncertainties that come with a child with a disability, was made all the more difficult for me, when one parent wanted to know and the other parent didn’t and they both lived in denial over what I was dealing with physically.
Unfortunately, living with a disability may always bring about negative attention for that child for the wrong reasons. If anything, it gets worse the older the child gets because there is even more pressure as the child becomes an adult. Although it’s our job to give children the attention and input they need, more value is often put on children seen as requiring little effort, who are more independent and are less needy.
Although I struggled with self-worth, I am now determined to equate my success with my site back. Even with my neurological impairments I need to keep reminding myself about what I do.
I must begin to see and equate The CP Diary as my success story, because this is what I’m told it is.