It’s that time of year again when I get to reflect on my blog. Now with a published book also behind me that has taken three and a half years to complete, I am completely at ease with everything.
For me to be able to contain my thoughts growing up over a disability I didn’t know I had until I was 46, the book has given me closure in a way my blog never could. I am irritated my disability remained buried, I am thankful the book openly gives me the opportunity to talk about my life.
The book goes into detail on my life and explains my cerebral palsy story in a way that the blog doesn’t. My blog is mental health, wellbeing and lifestyle, the book talks about my life.
With ‘advance copies’ of the book now in my possession, my thoughts go to another year. With an official publication date set for the 2nd January 2020, the enormity of what I have achieved isn’t sinking in and that’s okay. For me it’s probably best that it doesn’t.
With signs from mum that she approves of the book, my thoughts go to her. I know that if our circumstances had been different, I would have known about my disability. Through the book I understand now why I wasn’t told. It must have been difficult for her to live with the guilt, yet she selflessly still tried to help. She never gave up on me, insisting I do my daily exercises, to my annoyance and irritation.
It would never have been possible or achievable for me to understand my life without writing it the book, it is the only reason I wrote it. I would never have come to know what I know now about my disability without it and I couldn’t be happier with the results. It’s a beautiful, heartfelt book.
For those people who have struggled this year, I hope next year will be easier, and for those who have struggled less, I hope the trend continues. I want to say a ‘big thank you’ for all the love and support you’ve given me over the year. I couldn’t do what I do with my blog without your love and support.