Reflecting on my trauma

No matter what I had to deal with around my mental, emotional and physical struggles as a small child, giving in wasn’t an option. Although my symptoms didn’t make sense, my every day mental and emotional struggles were the same. I am still trying to come to terms with the enormity of what happened to me.

I struggled to find resolutions, clarity, and substance. Coming away from school was stressful, because I had to go back and my mental struggles continued. It would be many years later that I unconsciously began to realise that if anything was going to change, I needed to be that change.

Through necessity, through my intuition I found a way through. Since my early thirties, my gut and my intuition have been my eyes and ears, a pathway to understanding my struggles, my disability and my life to a calmer more peaceful life for the first time, breaking the cycle of living with trauma.

Whatever pain we experience in childhood, it is up to each of us to change that for ourselves and our children moving forward, so that our lives and bonds become stronger. Life is about breaking the cycle of our early years, and making sure we parent differently, so our struggles don’t become our children’s struggles.

By talking about my trauma, about my struggles and verbalising all my experiences through my blog, I strengthen my resolve, as I continue to break the cycle of carrying trauma. Yes, I believe that is what life is about, it is about breaking the cycle.

8 Jun, 2021

2 thoughts on “Reflecting on my trauma

  1. Breaking the cycle was something I always wanted to do, but wasn’t something I believed I could do. It has only been in the past couple of years that I have finally felt like I could, thanks to people like you believing in me.

    There are many things I really want to do like eventually being able to meet you, among so many other things. The world has finally opened up to me and you are one of the few who has helped me to accomplish this goal.

    Thank you so much for everything.

    1. Thank you Randy. Without your support I couldn’t continue to do what I do. You are one of the reasons I am able to do what I do.

      I am so pleased you feel stronger and are more confident. It would be cool for us to finally meet after all of these years.

      ‘The world has finally opened up to me and you are one of the few who has helped me to accomplish this goal’ – so pleased the world has. Now that you’re on the road, keep on moving forward.

      Even if you were to take a couple of steps back, you’ve started your journey. Your response has made my day.

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