No matter what I had to deal with around my mental, emotional and physical struggles as a small child, giving in wasn’t an option. Although my symptoms didn’t make sense, my every day mental and emotional struggles were the same. I am still trying to come to terms with the enormity of what happened to me.
I struggled to find resolutions, clarity, and substance. Coming away from school was stressful, because I had to go back and my mental struggles continued. It would be many years later that I unconsciously began to realise that if anything was going to change, I needed to be that change.
Through necessity, through my intuition I found a way through. Since my early thirties, my gut and my intuition have been my eyes and ears, a pathway to understanding my struggles, my disability and my life to a calmer more peaceful life for the first time, breaking the cycle of living with trauma.
Whatever pain we experience in childhood, it is up to each of us to change that for ourselves and our children moving forward, so that our lives and bonds become stronger. Life is about breaking the cycle of our early years, and making sure we parent differently, so our struggles don’t become our children’s struggles.
By talking about my trauma, about my struggles and verbalising all my experiences through my blog, I strengthen my resolve, as I continue to break the cycle of carrying trauma. Yes, I believe that is what life is about, it is about breaking the cycle.