School life

I hated school because I struggled, both socially and academically. Okay, let me rephrase that: I liked school, but school didn’t like me. I found it difficult and isolating. I had no understanding of why I struggled, I just knew I did.

Why I struggled to learn would only become apparent to me years later – it was because of neurological difficulties and rewiring from my cerebral palsy. I never stood out, I merely existed; or perhaps I did stand out because it was obvious I was different.

I was slow to learn and struggled academically and with my handwriting. I still have my handwriting to deal with. Falling behind in school was a daily occurrence and being told to speed up was another. When the rest of the class had already got their notes down, I was lagging behind.

I find it sad that in my school years, none of my teachers asked why I was struggling. In school I was slow to understand even the basics of what I was being taught. My school reports highlighted problems, all of which were ignored. There was no follow-through between school, home, my parents, parents’ evenings, or the marks on my reports.

My parents knew I struggled but did little to help me. My father said I would catch up. In the meantime, I was continually being picked up for a lack of substance to homework and schoolwork. I didn’t realise my lack of substance or ability had anything to do with my neurological impairments and cerebral palsy.

There was no joined-up thinking. I was well-behaved in school, but in my mind, I had already given up. Growing up I was considered lazy, and if they thought I was stupid, nobody said.

The irony is that I was neither, I was struggling academically and with no support, I struggled even more. Years later, my successful studies and my website show a different story.

With the right support and guidance from home and school I know I could have achieved more and although it would go on to take me many years to work out how to learn, I have now found a different way that works for me.

11 Oct, 2016

4 thoughts on “School life

  1. I hated school too, only because mathematics blew my head out of proportion with the rest of my body. But I made it through without having to have surgery on my brain, what was left of it anyway.

    All kidding aside, I admire your determination and your ability to find a way, despite your challenges.

    1. Awww thanks Tim. Yes, my determination and ability to find a way, was not having a way through. Somewhere in me, I must have been determined not to give up on myself, even though everyone had ignored my difficulties and had given up on me.

      Talking of your school days. You come across as someone who is articulate, book and world smart; and educated. I admire your strength of character, your ability to see things the way they present and still deal with whatever you deal with positively.

      All of those things are testament to how emotionally strong you are and how important those early years are for our development and growth; even through our difficulties.

  2. I suspect your school life would have been so much easier for you if your Cerebral Palsy was included in your education, but then again I guess your life would have been completely different and you wouldn’t be where you are now. You have proved it was school that was out of whack with you, not the other way around.

    I was lucky, school was just somewhere else, where I could have a good time; while doing just enough work to be seen to be doing just enough work!

    My school days came and went relatively uneventfully and I scraped into university and left it all behind me.

    1. If I was to be able to make any form of headway, my school needed to know what it was I was dealing with. It’s a shame they never too the time to work things through or ask the questions my parents chose to overlook.

      I think you are right, I have proved that school was out of whack with me and not the other way round. My site and my blogs have proved that; but it didn’t make those times easy for me.

      I am sure it wouldn’t happen in today’s school scenario. Such a shame it didn’t go that way for me. Everyone deserves to have a chance to succeed through school.

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