This issue has been a longstanding concern and as a consequence has been a very hard blog to write. Unbeknown to me and because I didn’t know I had sensory awareness issues as a child, or anxiety brought about through sensory awareness issues.
My earliest recollection of how this manifested itself, was when we were on holiday and the first thing mum did for me, was look in the bathroom. I had no idea why I struggled with bathrooms, or why the struggle was there, or that I even struggled with anxiety brought about through sensory impairment issues.
It sickens me to think that for years I’ve lived in ignorance around these issues and it’s also another piece of the jigsaw I’ve had to fit. I’ve also spent a lifetime being judged, in some circumstances others forgetting that I may present oddly, because to look at me you see very little wrong.
I want to look at things normally without the distortions. It becomes tiring having to explain myself all the time. We all need to have empathy, compassion and tolerance, but most of all we need to hear and have others understand what we deal with, without the judgments.