Sleeping without dreams

Imagine a black sheet of paper in front of your eyes, with no lights, with no images, with no memories or imagination coming through. That’s what I see when I sleep.

With extensive damage to the Cerebral Cortex, the part of the brain that is responsible for dreams, I can’t dream. Instead, my mind goes through a thought process that takes me through any outstanding issues not yet resolved that are still in my unconscious.

I have known for quite some time that I don’t recall dreaming, but I now know for sure that I can’t dream. In the past, I lacked any clear understanding of the facts. I’m not too bothered by the fact that I don’t dream, but I am bothered that those thought processes wake me up.

In my next blog on my neurological issues, I’ll go into more detail on why I can’t always rationale my thoughts and what is the issue behind that.


27 Jan, 2017

6 thoughts on “Sleeping without dreams

  1. I have had incredibly vidid dreams for as long as I can remember and they usually wake me up, they are so realistic. I have a number of recurring dreams too.

    In my case I could try and resolve this by addressing what ever is on my mind, either consciously or subconsciously, but this is not an option for you.

    I guess at least you now understand why you do not dream, whereas previously this would have added to your unexplained experiences.

    1. Thank you, yes I’m really okay with not dreaming, I’m just not so keen to being woken up with things that I need to resolve.

      In your case, I believe dream experts say that vivid dreams often out of control are part of our mindset brought about through past subconscious experiences. That wouldn’t be so bad of course if we had have dealt with our issues. Unresolved issues will always come through our dreams.

      It’s always good for us to invest time and effort in the things that may serve to hurt us more. We’re never free of them.

  2. Yes, I imagine that would make it very hard to sleep, since dreams are a way of processing the information from the day. You must get very tired and irritable I would imagine because you don’t actually get a lot of deep sleep.

    This obviously means that your brain is running 24/7 trying to process all of that information, which must wake you up quite often. I’m sure that you have mentioned what they found for damaged areas of your brain that go with the issues that you have, but I don’t remember exactly.

    I should go to have an MRI on my brain to see what damage, if any, there is in there. People don’t always understand what it’s like having to work with a brain that doesn’t always work normally.

    1. Thanks Randy. It’s not easy, particularly because my Cerebral Palsy is mild and they forget I have neurological issues, others expect me to react and behave as normally as they do.

      Yes, I do find it difficult to sleep but have got used to the way I sleep. I try to deal with much as is possible during the day so that I do get to sleep, but I’m not always aware of what the problem is until it wakes me.

      I agree and think it would be a good idea for you to find out what it is you deal with Randy. If an MRI scan gives you more closure, I’m sure it would make you feel better and would be something good for you to consider.

  3. Last night I was dying with the TV on, while fire was coming from the sky destroying everything in its path. I must have weighed two pounds less from the sweat and fear combined; it was only a dream though, I think.

    Or perhaps I was going through a thought process too Ilana, although I rarely remember my dreams.

    1. Thanks Tim. If you had have said you were in bed and had the same ‘dream’ I would have said it very much sounded like a dream, but perhaps you dozed with the TV on and your thoughts closed in on you, so it became a thought process and not a dream.

      I believe there are so many influences around us that become part of that process. I know in my own case I don’t dream, but perhaps you have both and it was the TV and your emotions building up a sense of sweat and fear that you inevitably had no control over.

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