For me dealing with sensory issues is like trying to fit a square peg, into a round hole. Unless the peg matches perfectly, in practicalities and looks, how I see and interpret the world will always be fraught with difficulties. That’s how sensory issues work.
It may seem trivial to someone who doesn’t deal with sensory issues through a brain hemorrhage, but it’s the mental and emotional side of what I have to deal with that can make things difficult, where in every day circumstances they would feel pretty normal to someone else. Trying to tie a thought process into a situation that doesn’t fit, or belong together, will always create me anxiety and stress.
I can’t make something a perfect fit with neurological impairments. Unless I can find a way to reshape the edges and that’s not possible for me, I will always be dealing with trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. It’s taken me a lot of years to understand why things don’t fit, but others struggle to fit into my life, because of it.
For me to understand the issues around an issue that seems perfectly normal to someone else, or can easily be addressed by someone else, can expand 3-fold. When I am presented with any issue that feels out of my depth, feelings of panic set in.
Unfortunately, when it happens, it’s something I have little control over. I need others to understand and work with me so that the holes get to fit better, but they don’t always have the patience, because they’re not looking at the issue I’m being presented with as a problem.