It’s easy to see similar circumstances to those we leave behind, but even though our new set of circumstances can seem different, they can feel very much the same. I know that I’m not back at square one; it just feels like I am. The new operation is making me feel despondent, because I’m now working through similar circumstances to the last one.
I am not discounting the progress that I’ve made, but my mood and despondency would tell you otherwise. Unless new change coping strategies are in place the way I perceive our new situation will always remains the same.
We have taken enormous strides to get to this place. Getting to this place is definitely progress, so why does it feel like I’m standing still? I’m telling myself everything’s okay. This is progress even though I am not moving forward.
Progress must have been made because:
- Because it isn’t taking as long for me to bounce back;
- I am beginning to see both circumstances differently and although the feelings seem the same, the situation looks slightly different;
- I am able to regain my perspective a little quicker;
- I’m not feeling everything’s all doom and gloom, although things still don’t feel right;
- I’m more in control now and able to say what I feel, which I didn’t manage before;
- I’m not living with my head in a fog as much as the last time. I’m managing to eat and am less stressed.
I’m probably standing still, but treading water; rather than moving back at least. Still working on working on things.