Even though a new set of circumstances can seem different, they can also feel very much the same. I know I’m not back at square one, it just feels like I am. The new operation is making me feel despondent, because I’m now working through similar circumstances to the last one.
I am not discounting the progress I’ve made, but my mood and despondency is telling me otherwise. Unless I have new coping strategies in place, the way I perceive my new situation will remain the same.
I have taken enormous strides to get to this place. Getting to this place is progress, so why does it feel like I’m standing still? I’m telling myself everything’s okay. This is progress even though I am not moving forward.
I must have made progress because:
- It isn’t taking as long for me to bounce back;
- I am beginning to see my circumstances differently and although the feelings seem the same, the situation looks slightly different;
- I am able to regain my perspective a little quicker;
- I’m not feeling everything’s all doom and gloom, although things still don’t feel right;
- I’m more in control now and able to say what I feel, which I didn’t manage before;
- I’m not living with my head in a fog as much as the last time. I’m managing to eat and I am less stressed.
I’m standing still treading water; rather than moving back at least. Still working on working on things.