The issues I deal with are usually the reason why I’m an early riser. I go to sleep with no thoughts, or preconceived ideas about any of the issues I might have been dealing with during the day, but I usually wake up with answers to any unresolved issues.
It wasn’t the pattern I had as a child. As a child, I couldn’t get to sleep because of bad thoughts whirring in my head. Although it took me a while to get to sleep, with mum by my side, once I slept I usually stayed asleep.
Now my father’s illness is constantly around us and in the equation. Add stress on to that and it makes everything else we deal with harder. Dealing with a terminal illness gives us the added stress. Subconsciously we will carry it.
I usually deal with stress by talking or writing about out, but others simply won’t admit they are stressed. Dealing with a terminal illness will always be stressful, whilst we’re a constant support and we manage our lives too.