The issues I deal with are usually the reason why I’m an early riser. I go to sleep with no thoughts, or preconceived ideas about any of the issues I might have been dealing with during the day, but I usually wake up with some of the answers in my mind on any unresolved issues.
It wasn’t the pattern I had as a child. As a child, I couldn’t get to sleep because of bad thoughts and although it took me a while to sleep, once I slept I usually stayed asleep. That’s probably more to do with my parents not giving me any responsibility. As the adult, I have no concerns going to sleep, the problem I have is staying asleep.
My father’s illness is constantly around us and in the equation. Add stress on to that and it makes everything else we deal with so much harder. Dealing with a terminal illness gives us the added stress, without us even thinking about it. Subconsciously we will carry it.
I usually deal with stress by talking or writing about out, which is why my Diary works, but others simply won’t admit that they are stressed. Dealing with a terminal illness will always be stressful, whilst we’re a constant support and we manage our lives too.