It’s been quite a while since I wrote a more personal blog. It’s no secret that I have always struggled with negativity, couple that with sensory processing issues and it’s an even bigger nightmare. It helps when I can get my thoughts out because then in my mind, I know I’m not alone.
It takes a lot of effort for me to move negative thoughts away. I go back to when I was a child and think about how difficult those times were. It would take me weeks, months even years to change my negative thinking. I got busy, I would forget about them for a little while, but I had to keep busy.
Being brought up in a negative environment didn’t help. In times of stress, negative thoughts come back. They were challenging, powerful, frustrating and upsetting. As a child, I had a little help from my mum, who would sometimes sit at my bedside telling me to count sheep, or she’d give me something positive to think about, but none of it worked and we’d end up going around in circles.
I usually had to find something to occupy my mind for the negative thoughts to dissipate and that’s not easy either, because I have Sensory Processing Disorder.