My mood seems to have gone downhill since yesterday. I know what has triggered the problem but cannot seem to resolve it. I’m in a no-win situation.
I have talked about the prospect of moving away at some point in one of my earlier blogs and that’s still on the cards, although I am unsure when that will happen. I have never had opportunities to go out into the world and experience for myself what my children are now benefiting from, but I look forward to that.
The questions are when does a parent stop being a parent? Or when does a parent start being a parent? I am sure there are many of us out there who are in this kind of scenario? When might a parent choose not to concern themselves with being a parent? It’s funny because I am totally the opposite. I have always based my relationship with my children on honesty, openness and mutual respect.
It’s been a tough week for me. I’m not sure how things will get easier, I’ve struggled for what seems a lifetime, but emotionally I need to resolve these issues. I suspect things will be back to wreak havoc again, but today I’m feeling strong enough to cope.
I’m going to have to make sure that continues.