I have had a change of plan for writing my blog today, because the letter I had been waiting for from my Neurologist came in the post this morning, so that has taken precedent. I am now looking at the final chapter.
I have written one or two blogs about bringing acceptance on what I have come to know over the last two years, but with this letter, it is now time to bring as much acceptance as I can on this issue.
I never went into researching my problems with Cerebral Palsy thinking I would find my answers, but whilst looking at my Neurologist’s letter, although he was sympathetic to my issues, I felt a strange feeling come over me that this was it.
However much information I had managed to find out, there would possibly be no more, unless I could read between the lines. The Neurologist went on to say that he thought that with the current methods, he didn’t think it would be possible to say that they would be able to identify, for example an area of the brain operating my leg, which was worse affected than the area of the brain operating my arm.
He couldn’t work out which part of the brain was faulty so as to impair non-verbal memory or cognitive functions. He said that the limit had been reached at this stage, although he wasn’t going to rule out that with future research, it may be possible to measure the function of the brain in a more ‘precise localised way,’ but that option is not available for anyone now.
The medical profession know my concerns and opinions with what I deal with and that somehow makes it easier for me to bring about acceptance. I say acceptance and not closure, because closure is final and that brings with it different connotations. It means bringing understanding and answers to all my questions and that’s not an option right now.
To those like me who have Cerebral Palsy and who are still left in the dark on all their symptoms, I hope they are able to bring acceptance on what they have been told, because with no research available, we’re not likely to know anything more that we already know.