The emotional ties of having to bring stability to my life takes time and effort and can be an emotional strain sometimes.
Keeping my family’s lives on track, means having to pull out the stops constantly. I have to think quickly on my feet and put all that I deal with emotionally, on hold. That isn’t easy.
I never stop to think about what I deal with, not consciously anyway. I tend to go go back to having had no emotional support. It weighs heavily sometimes. Through my blogs I have a different thought process each time.
There are other times when I stop to question my thoughts, but there are also times where I feel I’m coping well and seem happy, then I revert back. It may be that I’ve not come out of that place fully.
The place I retreat to when I’m feeling down, the safety net that’s around me. The place I usually come out of when I feel stronger.