I’ve been in counselling for many years, more years than I care to remember. It was a big decision for me to make, but felt it was necessary.
I remember telling my father and he didn’t flinch or comment, other than offering to say he would pay for the first few sessions. I was more upset that I was having to go into counselling as I saw it and that he just didn’t get it.
Some of us may take positive things from our counselling sessions, some many not take anything at all, some may see their counselling sessions as negative before they begin to feel more positive; some may feel confused, upset, annoyed, or for some even irritated.
I felt irritated because counselling was more like you’d have a chat with a friend. I didn’t clear any of the issues. It didn’t help that I didn’t know I had cerebral palsy or autism at the time. We all take what we need from our counselling sessions.
I’m now in ‘Cognitive Behavioural Therapy’ for anxiety for autism and that’s much better. Looking back on those years, it is clear I needed ‘a how to do approach, rather than a ‘this is what you have approach.’ In my sessions I continually talked about all barriers being up and found very little comfort of being told ‘this is how it is.’
It’s coming up to 10 years since I found out about cerebral palsy and with the help of my blog, I have now worked out why the brick walls were up, and why my father just didn’t get it.