I still have one or two issues centred round my Cerebral Palsy that I’ve never been able to bring closure on and unfortunately for me it’s my father’s terminal illness that continues to bring about these feelings.
Sometimes it’s not always the issue. It’s the fact that we feel we have no choice, given our lives up to that point. We all carry issues, but having a choice puts us in the driving seat so that we can either talk about our issues with the person we have an issue with, or walk away from talking about those issues and being okay with our decision.
If someone isn’t approachable we often find that our choices are made for us. I think that is what I’m struggling with and given the fact that I seem to be running out of time, I may never get the chance to talk about how I really felt about my issues.
I apologise if this blog seems similar to one I may have written already, but I feel I haven’t brought about acceptance on Cerebral Palsy, let alone closure. I know that if my father passes, the one last chance I had to discuss how I feel, will pass with him.
This is one issue I may never be able to solve. The life I’ve had to this point means I was never meant to and that’s not right. Everyone should be entitled.