I have written journals on Cerebral Palsy many times, but there is always more to write and although my feelings equate to the same thoughts, they still need to be expressed. I’m sorry if I seem to be repeating myself.
Today feels like a struggle. I struggle when those in my life, don’t understand what Cerebral Palsy means, I struggle because they don’t equate what I go through and struggle again when I don’t manage to complete a task, because I deal with brain fatigue. I think that anyone who lives with someone who deals with Cerebral Palsy, will also fail to understand the complexities.
The other side of my struggle is my life and the irony I find myself in. I am 47 years old and up until the age of 26 and getting married, never had the opportunities to be independent. My decisions were always made for me, based around my growing up family. I am still expected to conform.
We have a valuer coming in today to give us a value on the house. Moving will help us take some of the stress away. I always cope and feel better with what I deal with when I limit my stress.
Once the house has been valued, we can then decide on a way forward. I hope my angels are around me today.